Insight

So long ago

2008-09-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

My last post seems like forever ago. Time flies and so much has went on. Africa, school of ministry, and a hurricane. Who knows what lies ahead. I for now am making it a point to blog more to let everyone know how things are going. Right now I am exhausted from hurricane relief in donaldsonville. Tomorrow is another day, im sure it will be long and hard, but I am here to take it on. Lift those up that are bellow you, and pray for those above. No matter the status they are people who need love and support.

Next Chapter

2008-05-04T17:57:00.000-07:00

So i have three days left of high school. What? Three days left of high school!!!!! Praise Jesus i made it! I can remember wanting to be done with it before it began. Now i can honestly say that even though there were very low lows, the highs were great. It is four years of my life that flew by but at the same time drug on forever. So much has bee gained and afew people lost. Over all its been a chapter in my life that will be considered rising action, for the best is yet to come. The closing of one door means the opening of another! The open oppertunities include Africa and full-time Healing Place School of Ministry. God has been good to me and though i've endured a lot his plans for me are built on the foundation that was formed from the experiences. So the truth is i will miss the times i had in high school, but im looking forward to the experiences set before me. My reach is global, my tower secure, my cause is noble, my power is pure, and i cant be stopped!

Africa!

2008-03-10T20:09:00.000-07:00

My answer is yes the question is where. God has put the nations on my heart. I continuely ask God to send me! Now I am one of those who are going to Africa this summer. I am so incredibly blessed, thankfull, and speechless! God never fails to amaze me! The following is a segment from my journal from afew months ago.

"To know that there are people hurting in the world, but others living lavishly makes me think things could be different and should be different and I want to do something about it. If givin the oppertunity to go into the nations it would be so much more than a personal experience. It would be more than a life completely turned upside down.
Those hurting children in poverty are God's children. For us to go reach them is to be the heartbeat of God. In each act would be a beat of God's own heart. To know that I could relate to those children in a personal way makes going more than an option but a desire. To personaly relate myself to an orphan would be by expressing my life as an orphan. My mother passed away when I was 12 and my father is a drug addict who was never a father figure. The feeling can be understood but never felt by someone unexperienced. Harsh poverty in my youth also can be related to what the people are living in. To have a bases to relate with will make a connection stroger and the words and actions have more meaning. A passion is embedded in my heart and is stirred everytime I think about reaching those children. I believe I have experienced everything I have in life to be able to relate and reach the African people. I truely hope I will be accepted."

Take a Look

2008-03-07T11:56:00.001-08:00

A generation filled with desolate waste that captures our minds and dictates our lives. Living in a world of corruption and injustice that turns its back to the needy and untouched. How can we remain silent and inactive as we watch the self-destruction of our nation? Politicians with their multimillion-dollar campaigns that would rather put their name on a billboard, then help a family in poverty. Corporations that exploit pornography to teens in order to widen their pocketbooks. Religious leaders full of perversion harming children for their own personal satisfaction. Look around at this world that has no moral foundation. It sickens me to say the least. More importantly it motivates me to make a stand and to continue in this fight for survival. As Christians we can no longer alienate ourselves in our churches. We must invade the world, getting dirty and making a difference. The blame does not fall on anyone, but the responsibility has been laid in our laps. We cannot wait any longer for someone else to make the change. Procrastinating has dug our graves deeper, and we are running out of time. How much farther does the world have to fall before we decide we need to catch it? My feet are planted and my heart is set. I will not give up or back down. I will not shut up or be silenced. I will not be over looked or unheard. I will fight with all I have, and will not stop till things are changed! This is the time that we make a stand and change our world!

Band aid

2008-02-24T15:25:00.000-08:00

"Im stuck on band aid brand cause band aids stick on me!"
This jumped out at me during worship. So often we put band aids on the wounds of this broken and dieing generation. We cannot cover the problems anymore, because they are going unsolved. The wounds cannot be heald if they are not attended to. We must stitch up the wounds of this generation in order for God to heal us. As a generation that is broken we must look to God for nurishment and healing from the injuries we sustain from the world. The Devil want to still, kill, and destroy all of us. I have news for him, God is for us so the devil cannot stand against us. We have power over the enemy through God. Do not allow yourself to be taken hostage! As a generation we must amplify our battle cry of Jesus and continue to fight. We do not stand alone, we are all in this together.

Lets Take Charge

2007-12-29T17:13:00.000-08:00

At times us individuals are like worthless pawns being dictated by corrupt leaders. Those dignitaries are in charge of this septic pool of a world, which is desecrated with immorality and wickedness. A generation following in the path of recklessness and devastation will also end up with the result of disappointment. In order to prevent this vicious cycle to continue we must change every aspect of common life, as it is known. As the generation labeled with such negativity we must break beyond the mold and make an impact in the world. A generation that can not be changed is the generation that will change the world. Take up your duty and fight for a valid cause. We can no longer stand back and allow the people in power to further the disruption in our world.

Listen for it

2007-11-23T12:21:00.000-08:00

Do you listen to the harlequin mockery of the unfortunate?
Can you hear the cry of the suppressed,
drowning amongst your inadequacies?
While allowing yourselves to view their pain,
you grimace at the thought of their heartache.
Reclined with crossed arms,
you stair at the sight of despair.
Can you hear the pounding of a broken heart,
waiting for comfort to rescue them?

I would love to send this to all of
politicians that say they want to change
America! If they could only see how much
money could be used to help people rather,
than support their campagne! I would vote
for some who instead of trying to get on
every talkshow, they did comunity service.
I would vote for someone who truly cares
about the people instead of thier own personal
gain and success! I long for the day that
political coruption was a thing of the past!

Not human

2007-11-18T18:55:00.000-08:00

No longer am I human, for I have grown beyond that. I have reached the next level of understanding; I have seen beyond the normal and exceeded above the comprehendible. I am not human, and some of you might fine this odd or blasphemy. I am a divine being that feels the pain you express and sees beyond the problem and past the solution. I am not human, see this as a good thing. In not being human I do not find enjoyment in destruction. Nor do I seek the pleasure of acceptance only to not accept myself. I simply exist to prove the existence of the Creator. The one who sees before the beginning and past the end. I exist not to prove who I am, but to exclaim whom He is. He is grace, compassion, mercy, and understanding. He brings love to the forgotten, and peace to the miserable. The being in which I speak of is the almighty, He is alpha and omega. He is God!

clarity

2007-10-23T19:13:00.000-07:00

Allow clarity to find you when, you are twisted up amongst the thoughts that are weighing you down. How can there be peace in your heart when in your mind there is no peace at all? Life seems to continue to throw so many situations and obstacles in our face. We have adapted to the pain and troubles instead of laying them down at the foot of the cross of Christ. I am aware that we have been desensitized to emotional imploding and in doing so we have lost the ability to feel love. It seems that even when God is amongst you that He is so far away. We feel that even though we are right here that our heart is distant. God is doing a work in many of our hearts for the moment and half way through it just doesn’t seem right. How can we judge what God is doing? We can only see the here and now. While God can see what was, what is, and what is to come. So even while in the moment we feel like we are going no where God sees where we will end up. Lets just put our faith into what God can do and not worry about what we can not do.

See what He sees

2007-10-12T15:01:00.001-07:00

when a sculptor sees a rock they see a sculpture not a rock
when an artist sees a canvas they see a painting not a canvas
when God sees his people he sees our potential not our image
don't let Christianity be a stereotype but make it an outline
allow yourself to see yourself as God sees you
fulfill the blueprints of your life that God created
and eventually your image will not make a difference
your heart will dictate who people see you as

Solution!

2007-10-11T19:27:00.000-07:00

Drowning in tears
Suffocating in fear
And bound by insecurity

Held captive by selfishness
Controlled by helplessness
And griped by depression

Traumatized by life
Fighting against strife
And looking for an escape

This is our generation
Lost and hurting
Broken hearted and desperate
Waiting for answers

Bring it upon yourself
To deliver Christ as their
Solution!

Turn it over

2007-10-07T17:57:00.000-07:00

When your heart and your mind don’t align with the same emotion, then it is easy to be broken down and shattered within yourself... Life is hard and situations in life that are not in your favor make it even harder...but God almighty can step into whatever you might be in and pick up the peace’s of your shattered heart. It seems so easy to flee to whatever can satisfy us in the moment but when the emptiness returns God is still waiting for you! He wants it to be the two of you for when you are alone God can do works in your life. Turn whatever you are going threw over to God, for He will create something out of the nothingness of your circumsatnce. Let God be the driving force of your life and the destination will be better than any outcome you could create by yourself.

Fresh and so clean

2007-09-07T19:55:00.001-07:00

I just got home from work and the first thing I did was take a shower! I had to clean my burns so they don’t get infected. In doing so the skin started to come off......it hurt so freaking bad that I cried! So I thought about it for a moment and came to this conclusion. When bad things happen there are layers of emotions left behind. In getting over those problems you have to clean yourself from what happened. The cleansing process might be painful while going through it, but in the end it is beneficial. If you don’t cleanse yourself then more things will begin to corrupt your life and infection will set in. (From the bottom of your feet to the top of your head there is no healthy spot left on your body- only bruises, sores, and fresh wounds. They haven't been cleansed, bandaged, or soothed with oil. Isaiah 1:6) Jesus was sacrificed on the cross for his pure blood to cleanse our infected lives from sin. Let Jesus be your soap and cleanse you from the things infecting your life. Allow God to come into your life and be able to use you to change the world. (They treat my dear people's wounds as though they were not serious, saying, "Everything is alright! Everything is alright!" But it's not alright. Jeremiah 8:11) Though people often appear together on the surface, many are hurting and broken inside. People tend to comfort others by saying everything is okay, but when there is no action behind their words then there is no meaning. Don’t fight against the cleansing process for it is what you need to be used by God. Don't depend on people to get you through tough times, for is God ment for you to go through it, he ment for you to ask Him for help.

He robbed me

2007-09-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

I opened Lone Oak at 6:00 saturday morning like i do every saturday. The morning was slow with a few regular customers coming and going. At about 7:15 a black male about 25 years old came in the store. He asked to buy a cup of water and i replied yes it will be 25 cents. As he walked toward the fountain drinks i told him we didnt have a water spout over there. I was nice and said i could get him some water from the kitchen. The guy said no thanks he needed hot water. So he filled a 16 ounce cup with the water out of the spicet on the side of the coffee pot. (The water is about 100 degrees) I didn't put much thought into why he needed hot water so i was like ok. So then the guy walked up to the counter and i checked him out. When i opened the register to put his change in the guy through the hot water at my chest and grabed the money and ran out the door. I screamed for chris to come help me (chris is deli guy) He ran out the store only being able to see the car pulling out the parking lot. The cops came and so did the parimedics. I had to go to the ER to be treated for 2nd degree burns. After the hospital visit i had to go to the sheriffs office to record a statement and to describe in detail to the sketch artist what the man looked like. (this is important because the tape in the cameras was not recording at the time) so it was about 2:00 when i finaly got to go home and take pain medacine and go to sleep. That was my eventful saturday! so tell me what you would have done in that situation!

Placed on my heart

2007-08-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

So sleep my beloved child in peace as you lay in the lap of the lord, feel each breath of life in rhythm with your heart. Hold close the dream that fills your mind and with will pursue it as your destiny. Eternity is within you, so draw it from the pit of your soul and align your life to reflect it. Sleep now my child and gain strength for what is about to come. Be well rested for when the time comes I will recruit you. As you were once a child you are now my soldier. For once you were a Christian you are now my warrior. Take my will and fight for the Kings heart. Become part of my revolution. Lead my uprising. Be the one I have chosen you to be. Come my army and fight on the front line for I have chosen you to do my fathers work.
-Lacey Dotson
I feel God put this on my heart and on my mind to say that the time of waiting is over....we need to get to work in fighting for his name...if no one else is standing for him we must do so!

a generation fighting the enemy...this is our enemy

2007-08-24T12:53:00.000-07:00

José Luis de Jesús Miranda is the founder and leader of Creciendo en Gracia (Growing In Grace International Ministry, Inc.) a ministry that teaches the doctrine of Grace and is based in Miami, Florida USA. Miranda's followers believe that he is the reincarnation of God on Earth, Jesus, the apostle Paul, an angel and an archangel. He refers to himself as the Antichrist and exhibits a "666" tattoo on his forearm. He has also previously referred to himself as "Jesus Christ in the flesh".

Current movement
In 2007, the Dallas Morning News reported that Miranda "preaches to followers in some 35 nations, mostly in Latin America, and has 287 radio programs and a 24-hour Spanish-language TV network." Creciendo en Gracia has been described as a cult by cult expert Rick Ross, and others.

In early 2007, he acknowledged others' claims that he was the Antichrist and explained that the term is true. He says it applies because people are no longer to follow the Jewish teachings of Jesus of Nazareth, and start acknowledging his (Miranda's) mission on the cross. According to Miranda, "Antichrist" means "no longer following Jesus of Nazareth as he lived in the days of his flesh". Naturally, controversy has surrounded these declarations.

Most recently, followers have shown their support by getting "666" tattoos on their bodies. "666", Miranda explains, is not a sign of the devil (he preaches that the devil was destroyed), but the number of the Antichrist. The Antichrist, he says, is a term he accepts because "we are no longer supposed to follow Jesus of Nazareth, therefore we are antichrists."

His followers often shout at Catholics and smash statues of holy figures in front of Catholic Churches.

emotionaly distressed

2007-08-09T21:07:00.000-07:00

i dont know where i stand
i am lost within myself
holding onto what is left
slowly losing grip
here i am alone again
i close my eyes and breath
take me away from here
rescue me from my defeat
you have stolen my heart
and captured me from my pain
all i need is you now
to pick me up and hold me close
i draw near to you
and surrender all i have
the light is still dim
yet it is getting closer
i fall back against you
leaning on you for strength
you hold me up and we make it through
i could not do any of this with out you

matisyahu concert

2007-07-12T09:45:00.001-07:00

I had the amazing chance to go to the matisyahu and 311 concert with a friend of mine. So I took off work to go, I knew the crowd would be a little strange due to the performance of 311. For those who do not know who matisyahu is, he is a Jewish reggae and beatbox artist. He is amazing and really connected to God. Unfortunately the 311 fans are not and there were plenty of fans getting high during the show. As matisyahu performed and poured his heart out on the stage my heart broke. I was sitting there seeing people getting high as matis was singing about God. I don’t understand how people can have something right in front of their face and still not embrace the concept of God. I knew there would be people doing drugs and I knew there would be people getting drunk. It was me that in spite of making a stand just became another face in the crowd. The performance was great and the experience showed me what needs to be done. We can no longer sit back and just let things happen. We can’t just become another face in the crowed. We must band together and go public with our lives devoted to Christ. We must stand up stand out and change the world. We see what should be different, and what could be different, so lets do something about it!

color wheel

2007-06-30T19:48:00.000-07:00

So Jesus shed red blood for my black sin and made my heart white as snow! Submerge '07 totaly turned my heart inside out and revealed things that was hiden so deep that i was not aware of them. God took away heart arche, confusion, and depression out of my heart. In return he replaced it with joy, hope, and unconditional love. I felt trapped in a life that I had no control of and was sinking! God helped me forgive myself for many mistakes and cleansed my mind of guilt. I have forgiven my father of many terrible things that happened in my childhood, this was holding me back from opening up to God. I also came to the realization that it was not my fault that my mom passed away, there was nothing I could have done to change that. I always wanted to give God everything and I never knew why I wasnt able to, this experiance shed light onto my heart and showed me what i had pushed so far down that it wasnt visible. God is amazing and i have embraced the mission of standing up for the purpose of Christ. I serve a Holy God that love us so much that he wants us to open up to his mercy and grace. I will show this love to those who are lost and serching for more.

He has Mercy

2007-06-19T19:22:00.001-07:00

on my way home from work i noticed that my gas was bellow empty....so i was like that sucks i will have to get gas at walmart in the rain... so as i am going down airline my car starts to jerk, i think its because of the rain on the street no big deal...then it starts to slow down and i begin to freak out....i was like dont stop in the dark and rain......so i prayed so deep that god culd get me to the gas station.....so i turned up the radio which was on k-love amd praised god....my car got this burst of speed an i made it to the light, i was like come one just a few more feet and it had another burst of speed....i pulled up to the gas pump and the car shutdown, it ran out of gas.....when i got out the car i screamed thank you jesus for getting me here....This was so awsome i got gas and made it home!!! God so had my back and i am still in shock that this happened! Never doubt God because without faith there is no mercy.

infinite love

2007-06-13T13:53:00.001-07:00

The infinite love that God bestows upon us consumes you. It elevates a relationship that will produce spiritual fruit and allow you to grow. As the spirit nurtures you it equips you to impact the world around you. A life that is devoted to God will overflow with blessings and joy, it will resemble Christ, and bring hope to those who are lost. We should be a beacon of light to this world that is consumed by darkness.

Time is a concept

2007-06-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

Time is a concept that is hard to control. It does not matter how much you want it to slow down or stop it will continue to progress. This is the same with life; it doesn’t matter what happens life continues to progress. In a way this is good, but when times are rough you need the world to stop so you can regain composure. Finding peace in the storm in a sense is what it boils down to. As time passes so do friends, moments, and memories. Time steals from us and gives as well. Time takes our attention and memories but gives us opportunities and wisdom. Come to think of it God is like time. He gives us so much, yet takes away what we hold onto the most. God gives us mercy, grace, and unconditional love. He takes away heartache, shame, and despair with the list going on forever. As God created us in his own image, perhaps time was too.

Grab Hold

2007-06-02T20:15:00.000-07:00

To make it through life we must grab hold of something firm and stable. This will assist us in the parts of life that tend to get rocky. Life is like a roller coaster that can bring you to the highest point and suddenly drop down farther than you can ever imagine. At the lowest point is where what you are holding onto matters the most. A pure and calm being will lead you out of despair. If you are holding onto something tangible of the world it will not sustain you. It will only cause more turmoil in your time of confusion. Make it a point to discover the significance of what it is you are holding onto.

In The Presence

2007-05-26T08:01:00.001-07:00

The spirit flows down around us
Captures the emptiness of our hearts
Filling us with an emotion that is overwhelming
A peace is poured over us and silences our minds
Knowing you in our lives will give us strength to carry on
Living to be a vessel for the spirit to flow through
Our hearts become aligned with the plan of God
Eventually fulfilling the predestined concepts of Christ
We are his creation and work of art
Displaying ourselves as an exhibit to glorify Him

contemplate with this reality

2007-05-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

I contemplate with this reality
The struggle is what feeds me
Wrestle with the instability of a plan
Capture the insignificance and hold it in your mind
Being held hostage by the imperfections of a broken heart
Only to comprehend the elastic battle of love
Fighting a war to find a result of peace
An impossible accomplishment of the human mind

Shimmer

2007-05-14T19:44:00.001-07:00

All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade Away again....i am so done with this world and what we are "suppose to change"......life hands everyone a bad hand of cards……. what is different is the way each person plays them.....and then there are those who bluff and use their poker face to make everyone think they are happy and content.....in my opinion there is no true happiness and joy is just a word that is used to express a moment when the storm has calmed and you are just caught up in the moment of freedom.......people say that God is a selfish god....but we are not to be selfish....then they say that we are suppose to be imitators of god……I just don’t fully understand the concept….everyone has selfishness within them and it is due to the desire of being independent…..many don’t surrender to god because you have to depend on him and transform your whole existence to a codependent lifestyle….others have an emotional desire to just feel loved…when the drugs and relationships and the other secular acts no longer keep someone content they move on to something else…..many people look to god as their last resort and in doing so find that what they have been looking for was right in front of them the whole time….but rather than living a life that has guidelines and order, many people look for a more liberal option…..in doing so people become burned out and disappointed when what they are flooding their lives with is not satisfying them…….there are people in their retirement age who are still looking for what they want in life and how they can do something to better the world…..i say why waste time in looking for the answer when its so evident that the answer is within you….many people don’t follow their heart instead they follow their mind…..sometimes the most logical thing isn’t the correct thing…..follow your heart because it will take you in the direction that your spirit was meant to travel…..and in doing so you will be shown your plan and purpose for your life on this earth along with your destiny and future……just follow your heart and god will take care of the rest.

Empty Vessel

2007-05-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

What it is to become an empty vessel?
It is to bare to the world how poor your insides are,
how empty your heart is, how ignorant your mind is.
It is the baring of this in which one begins to find wholeness.
It cannot happen if the void is enclosed and guarded from being exposed.
It is first with the breaking of our delusions that we can finally find something real.
In searching for what is real one will find
that the only existence of reality is that found in a relationship with god.
In being an empty vessel it is only comprehensive
to invite the spirit of god to inhabit you as a vessel.
In doing so the spirit will flow through you to reach out
to those not yet in tune with the reality of fulfillment in God.

Spiritual Photosynthesis

2007-05-10T21:17:00.000-07:00

Spiritual photosynthesis

No longer will I look to the world for nutrients

For it is only temporary satisfaction

I can no longer sustain on the artificial euphoria

There is no fulfillment found in a secular appetite

I must resort solely on the adequate blessings of god

Being satisfied by absorbing the presence of the Holy Spirit

Subduing the hunger of my soul by pressing into the word

My thirst is quenched by the mere concept of unconditional love

I embrace the transformation that has begun